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Fear No More

As I sit surrounded by the sounds of laughter and heart warming chatter of a quaint coffee shop I can write about a fear. A fear I don’t have to face anymore.

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I used to be afraid of thinking about what my life would be if something happened to my husband or children.

I’ve faced that fear. Not by choice. And you know what? I came out the other side.

Almost three years ago Dr. Evil got sick. Really sick. Life support sick. Almost died sick.

It sucked. I don’t have words to describe the experience although I’ve tried. Many times.

Life threw us a curve ball most fear and no one expects.

But we came out the other side. Wiser. Thankful. More aware of mortality. Less focused on the silly things. Point is ….. we came out the other side.

I’ve made some absolutely amazing friends. I’ve folded many people into my “family.” Family is thicker than simply blood. And I’ve grown as a person. I strive to be better.

I no longer worry incessantly about the wellbeing of my children. Instead I work at being a better parent. A better partner. A better person. To be more. While learning to just ….. be. Those statements may seem in direct conflict with each other. But one thing overcoming my fear taught me was I must focus some on myself in order to be more. To be a better wife and parent.

As fall approaches I am nervous. I think I may always be but only time will tell. November and December are tough months for me.

But they are also months filled with miracles. Dr. Evil got sick BUT HE ALSO GOT BETTER during these months too. (And many of the following months too!)

It’s taken me a few years to deal with my fear. I do still worry. What parent or spouse doesn’t? But fear no longer dictates my every thought, every breath.

I just try to live for today and make the most of it.

EJ out – to love this Friday with snow forecasted!!! SNOWBOARDING SOON!!! πŸ‚πŸ‚πŸ‚πŸ‚πŸ‚πŸ‚πŸ‚πŸ‚πŸ‚πŸ‚

Thanks to Small Talk Mama for this awesome subject. I only did one fear but it was a doozie so I hope that’s okay!!!!

Welcome to a Secret Subject Swap. This week, 14 brave bloggers picked a secret subject for someone else and were assigned a secret subject to interpret in their own style. Today we are all simultaneously divulging our topics and submitting our posts.

My subject is β€œWhat are some fears from your past that no longer frighten you?”. It was submitted by http://www.smalltalkmama.com Small Talk Mama .

Here are links to all the sites now featuring Secret Subject Swap posts. Sit back, grab a cup, and check them all out. See you there:

http://www.BakingInATornado.com Baking In A Tornado
http://themomisodes.com The Momisodes
http://spatulasonparade.blogspot.com/ Spatulas on Parade
http://stacysewsandschools.blogspot.com/ Stacy Sews and Schools
http://berghamchronicles.blogspot.com The Bergham’s Life Chronicles
http://www.eviljoyspeaks.wordpress.com Evil Joy Speaks
http://dinoheromommy.com/ Dinosaur Superhero Mommy
http://www.silenceofthemom.blogspot.com Silence of the Mom
http://climaxedtheblog.blogspot.com Climaxed
http://sparklyjenn.blogspot.com/ Sparkly Poetic Weirdo
http://www.someoneelsesgenius.com Someone Else’s Genius
http://www.crumpetsandbollocks.com Crumpets and Bollocks
http://thethreegerbers.blogspot.ch/ Confessions of a part-time working mom
http://www.smalltalkmama.com Small Talk Mama

10 Comments

  1. Wow, what a wonderful tribute to my silly secret subject. I was thinking spiders, snakes or getting wrinkles, but your post was so much deeper and touching than I ever could have imagined. Thank you for sharing your story!

  2. Snow? Really? I would hate to live there.
    ps….I’m so glad Dr. Evil came through and you guys are happy/healthy.

  3. I can’t even imagine going through that. HUGS HUGS HUGS!!!

  4. I remember from the time my kids were little teaching them the value of “conquering our fears”. Although yours was one none of us want to face, I know that you’re the person you are today because you did. XO

  5. Thanks for sharing! Unfortunately, I’ve had to face these fears as well. It isn’t easy. I’m grateful y’all made it through! Thank you for sharing this with us all! Uhhh… that pic made my mouth water!

  6. I can’t imagine going through what you went through—very brave of you to write about it as well.

  7. You are so much braver than I am. I’m glad Dr. Evil got better and sorry he was sick in the first place.

  8. What a crazy experience to go through. I am glad that your hubby recovered and that instead of being bitter you refocused on what was important to you.

    Thank you for sharing β™₯

  9. I’m glad you guys came through to the other side, and it’s awesome you discovered what life means to you in the process. The things that are truly important.

    • Thanks. As November approaches I’m trying to remind myself to read what I wrote. Dr. Evil is starting to travel more and had he taken the trip he was suppose to take when he got sick – he’d have gone into septic shock alone in a hotel room on the other side of the country. It makes me panic.

      But I look around – find 10 things to focus on and remember he didn’t go on that trip. He’s going to come home today and life is what it is. Day by day and each day is a gift with unexpected to be expected.

      Have a wonderful day.

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