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Tomorrow..

For the days when you’re done, over it, whipped, emotionally tapped out….

Tomorrow isn’t far away.

For the nights when you can’t sleep, fret over words or actions, or are anxious….

Tomorrow isn’t far away.

 

I’m done today. Just done. Nothing bad happened to me or those I love. I am just feeling pulled in too many directions, dropping too many balls, and beating myself up over all of it. I’ve created this bar that is so high I’ll never meet it. Today the bar zoomed into space and it was all I could do to make it through each thing I needed to without crying. I can’t keep up with the demands I’ve placed on myself. Tonight I find myself working on emails and deadlines, writing checks and checking budgets, and washing and folding laundry…and getting absolutely none of it done as well as I’d like.

I’ve decided to let “done” be good enough. And that the things “not-done” will have to be okay. Tomorrow is another chance at getting it right. And making the demands a little more appropriate and obtainable. Remembering I don’t have to do it all, be perfect in what I do accomplish, or feel bad about any of it.

I know this was the last day of summer for my kids. We did a couple of fun things. I said a few harsh words. I keep thinking, “I should have…” But at the end of the night, I know when they went to bed they know they are loved and that I’ll be there for them no matter what. And tonight…that has to be enough.

Tomorrow isn’t far away.

4 Comments

  1. The knowledge that it will all still be there tomorrow is both a blessing and a curse. Gah.

  2. This is so beautifully written, friend.

  3. I know this feeling all too well. Between work, wedding, writing, and life…I’m juggling far too much. But only a few weeks more. And then something else will come up. I know how I am. But I focus on the what I can get done. And not what’s not done well enough. I write one thank you note a day. When I can. I check one thing off my wedding list. I check 3 or 4 things off my work list. And I systematically get it done. Even if it’s a slower process.

    One of my co-workers always says to me, “It’ll still be there tomorrow.”

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